December ("Broken Fellowship")

December
8 – “Do everything possible on your part to live in peace with everybody.”
9 –“First get rid of the log from your own eye, then perhaps you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye.”
10 – “A gentle response defuses anger, but a sharp tongue kindles a temper-fire.”
11 – “ Peacemaking is not avoiding conflict. Running from a problem, pretending it doesn’t exist, or being afraid to talk about it is actually cowardice.”
12 – “ When you expect anyone – a friend, spouse, boss, or family member – to meet a need that only God can fulfill, you are setting yourself up for disappointment and bitterness.”
13 – “ Look out for one another’s interests, not just for your own.”
14 – “Focus on their feelings, not the facts. Begin with sympathy, not solutions.”
15 – “People don’t care what we know until they know we care.”
16 – “We must bear the ‘burden’ of being considerate of the doubts and fears of others. Let’s please the other fellow, not ourselves, and do what is for his good.”
17 – “It is a sacrifice to patiently absorb the anger of others, especially if it’s unfounded.”


*The sentences written in the month of December was from the book “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. I just want to share with you the gift of fellowship and let us realize it before the year-ends. ‘Hope you restore every broken fellowship that you had this year for a better start for the year to come. Happy Holidays!

12 month's list

Let’s go back to the things that happened during the 12 months of this year:

January:
1 – It was my first time to celebrate New Year away from my parents. It was good my friends were there to celebrate New Year’s Day with me. We watched movie and it was fun.
9 – Quiapo Fiesta. No classes. We went to the SM Mall of Asia and Donald treated us with the Greenwich Sisig Pizza.
12 – Jp’s birthday is actually Jan.11 (Thursday) but we preferred celebrating it on this day. Since it was his birthday, he has the privilege to let us do anything he wants for us to do. It was sooooo embarrassing!
13 – One the saddest moment. Bernard passed away.
26 – I feel so guilty of what I have written to my blog. I felt so bad this day. I didn’t mean to hurt anybody.
28 – We decided to finish our project in Oracle! I don’t have any money at all. I was so bankrupt! I need help! S.O.S.
29 – Midterm Examination! I started thinking about what would be the best gift for Valentine’s Day. As always we have a gift giving. We went to McDo for our lunch. It was wrong timing for me because I didn’t bring enough money that day. It was good Yeye was there to lend me some. Thanks!
30 – We’ve waited for this professor for almost four hours and it was just so annoying! Why can’t he just tell us that he can’t make it on our class that day! We’ve planned to go to Batangas for a swimming trip. I just hope it will work this time!
31 – My exam on Computer Organization was good just don’t ask about my exams on Accounting because if you do I may end up hurting you!

February
2 – I have read Lorie’s blog about Pyro. I was moved and had teary eyes while reading it. I then realized how this life could sometimes be so unfair. It was Yeye’s birthday.
5 - There are just some things that we can never tell.
9 – Jp, Joevic and I had our “merienda” at McDo. I was not supposed to go but Jp insisted so I did. It was the first time Joevic treated me. It was fun being with them.
13 – The annoying professor was nowhere to be found. Has something happened? He was not even present in his classes yesterday.
14 – Jm, Joevic, Rachelle, Yeye, Lorie, Vanessa and I went to Manila Zoo since we’re not going anywhere else. It was fun, now I know that Valentine’s Day is much happier with your true friends. Yeye gave our sir a chocolate that he made herself. Sweet!
15 – We’ve discovered something! Someone was angry at our section!

March
4 – I hate people that keep on entering my life though it is so obvious that I don’t want them on it. They are just so pathetic! They’re like desperate people!
14 – I wanted so much to comfort Jp but I can’t say anything. I was just there looking at him while he’s crying. If there were no other people around I would have also cried. I’m really sorry with what happened to him.
16 – Jp was broken hearted.
19 – Jp was supposed to be with us that day but as usual he was not there because they’re together again. Amazing isn’t it?

April
5 – Look at these people! They’ll just tell you that they’re going to enroll in the summer classes the very same day that they’re already in the line to pay for the summer classes. Why didn’t tell us a little earlier? So that we could have look for money! They are so unfair!
18 – Still no news about Jp. He doesn’t even text us. We don’t know what’s happening to him after what happened.
19 – I left Manila for the province. I was not excited though.
20 – The person I was hoping to see was not in the province. Disappointed.
22 – My family and I went to the beach. I should be happy but I’m not. I felt a little happier though when I saw my brother “Chris”. I’m thankful that my family’s complete and together.
23 – I’ve felt so worthless!

May
2 – Joevic’s birthday. I was so cruel because I let Joevic and Yeye worried (if they were worried) about me. I asked them about what would life be if I’m gone. Joevic let me greet him in a radio program. If it wasn’t his birthday I wouldn’t do that. I never did that before!
8 – I finally got a message from Jp. But I read it a little too late. So sad with what’s happening with his life.
16 – Joevic and Leah were in love with each other for sometime. Then much to my dismay Joevic did something that made me so angry with him! He had another girl except from my dear friend Leah! Thanks to me Leah and Joevic met and in short I was the one who pushed Leah to be heart broken after all. I felt so bad for introducing them to each other! I hated myself for doing it! I should have known Joevic better.
19 – My sister was operated due to her appendicitis. Thank God she’s fine.
23 - My Birthday. Vanessa, Yeye and Em went to our house to celebrate with me. Two of my friends, Merissa and Aileen were also there to celebrate.

June
5 – “Death” has been in my mind this past few weeks.
11 – First day of classes. Secrets started to be discovered. A secret and forbidden relationship between two people I know. Love really moves in mysterious ways. Gotcha!
21 – I was never after anything. All I want is to be with them. It just hurt so much to find out in the end that I’m alone, alone again.
22 – Promises were really made to be broken. Just disappointing.
23 – Daniel’s Birthday. All is well.
31 – Everything happens for a reason.

August
8 – Fritz smiled at me! That was the smile I’ve been waiting the moment I set my foot there. I really like his smile! The way his glasses fit his Chinese eyes and the way his face blushes each time. Nothing can stop Ate Lorie’s birthday even the bad weather.
11 – We celebrated Ate Lorie’s birthday. We gave her a surprise party but we were the one who was surprised. We had so much fun.
20 – I’m not seeing Harry these past few weeks. As always we had our four long hours of break before our next class.

September
12 – I have met a guy that was really funny.
17 – I can never believe how someone can turn into a so-called “celebrity” and change the way I look at him as a person.


October
19 – Grades slip were issued. I thought I’d see the guy I met a month ago but as the afternoon end and all my hopes loosing I saw this guy in a red shirt. That’s when I knew it was he. He was with a girl and a guy, which I think were his classmates. But it doesn’t matter all I know is that he’s there. (I never thought that this day would be the last day I’m going to see him.)

November
20 – I saw Julius this morning, accidentally.
21 – Harry lost so much weight and he became so skinny. I don’t know what he’s been up to during the semester vacation. He looks so much like a grade five student.
24 – I wouldn’t say anything if it wasn’t true, well if I didn’t saw it!
28 – I’ m still looking forward to seeing “him”. But I guess he really transferred to another school. I’m sad about it.

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Parting ways!

It’s Christmas and yet I was really sad this day. I never imagine how hurting it is to say goodbye to someone who has been part of your life for almost three long years. And what hurt most is to see that it seems like one of the two people who used to love each other so much seems not that affected. I wanted to cry right then and there but I just can’t. Not there, not in front of them two. I can’t help but hate the person who steals her away from him. I was really broken as if I was the one being left. I was just so hurt with what happened. I may have been laughing most of the time but it doesn’t mean that I am happy with what’s happening. It hurt so much that I wanted to cry every time I have to tell the story over and over again. I was there. I was the one who witnessed how they spend Christmas day as if it was their last together. And I know that it is. I watch him as he took off the bus and look at the window where I was sitting next to his girl and you can see the pain and hurt that he’s feeling as she wave him goodbye. They both know it will be their last. I just can’t help but remember those times when they used to laugh and do things together. But now it seems like all of it was gone. I just started to think how really hurting it is to fall in love and how everything can change easily. I started to get afraid of falling. All I know is that I would never leave someone that I love because of somebody, not because of another guy! I would never do it. I’m just really affected because I was the one who’s there! I’m sorry if I’m over reacting!

Drink and Drunk

It was Mariss’ birthday today and Yeye was unafraid enough to dare us to drink! And that’s what we did. We drink and got drunk. It was fun since we’re all girls and we did this for the first time. Though it was not first time for us – Rachelle, Vanessa, and I but we still count it as our first time. Well, I’ve got a little secret that I would like to share with you. Even I ask myself – how come all the alcohol that we drink did somewhat not affect “some people” there. Here’s the secret. Whenever I drink with people I have this tendency to observe each and every action that they do while we are drinking. This is to see how their body reacts to the alcohol and see what’s the difference when they’re normal and when they’re not. And unfortunately I observed something that was really odd. For those who would like to know what’s the secret, just come up to me or leave a message on my c-box. And for you girl, I know your secret. Unfortunately I have observed you that night. The only wrong thing that you did was to let me use the bathroom after you did! Gotcha!