Thank You

I want to extend my Thank You’s to all the people who helped me answer all the question of brainbench. Whether it was correct or not what matter is that we passed each course. Hurrah! Thanks a lot! I owe you so much, I know.

getting back at me? huh??!

you are getting back at me then?! huh?! is this what you're saying?! so this is how you play your game? amazing! I was even about to believe you! I just hate you so much now! you're just like them! now i know! this is the way your mind works! grrr! i even hate myself for believing you!!! i hate you $%#@*^&!!!

Grudge

She called me and I wasn’t able to receive her call. I don’t know why I felt it but somehow I felt that there is something wrong. She told me she needs my help. Isn’t it amazing?! She never dared to text me or even bothered to say hi or hello for almost 4 years, and she’ll just pop-up and tell me that she needs my help!!! Despite what I’ve gone through because of her and her miserable ways with guys! I just feel so annoyed to think about those things that happened way back then. Gosh! How I want to hate her for what she had done! But I just can’t. It’s not that I’m affected about her and the guy (that used to have a special something) having their baby girl now. I’m not really affected about it. It’s all over, past is past! We all learned! And that’s it. But what I just can’t get is her, asking me for help! If you only know the real story then maybe you’ll understand. (But you don’t.) She told me that I’m the only one that could help her! Please, tell me what happened to the rich girls and thousands of friends that you have way back then? Where are they now? They’re supposed to be with you, aren’t they?

Confused, Scared and Ashamed

Hahaha…It was so cruel of me to have decided to post that story in this blog, to be honest I was not really myself that time. Maybe I was just “too emotional” again! (As always.) It was one of the decisions that I never thoroughly thought about. I wasn’t really thinking. At one moment I was feeling free to post it and after another minute I started to feel confused, scared and ashamed. But whatever I felt, that’s it. I already posted it, with the expectation that those people concerned would read it. And they did. I don’t know what they felt about it, so I really look at myself as someone bad enough to have written such thing. Maybe they’re asking why I never felt that I wasn’t a good friend, I don’t know the answer. I just feel like I’m not. It’s not that I can’t keep secrets, I’m proud to say that I’m one of the best secret-keeper there is, really. Maybe because I want to give the best of me when I’m a friend to someone, that is something that is a bit hard for me to do and there are just so many factors that kept me from doing such thing. When I want to give something I wanted it to be the best but somehow I feel that it’s not. I don’t think you can get what I’m trying to say. But that’s what I really feel. It’s just so hard to understand.

Dedmahan ito!

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari, basta ganun na lang. Nagulat na lang ako nang bigla na lang silang nagkailangan. Oo, madalas ko silang makasama, kaya nga kahit ako, hindi ko sila magawang intindihin. Siguro naman kaya kong ma-decipher ang mga bagay-bagay na pinapakita nila kaso hindi talaga eh. Hindi ko alam kung may pagka-special child ba ang mga batang ito o ano?! Basta ang malaking tanong ano ba talaga ang nangyari? Parang bigla na lang silang hindi nagkikibuan. Parang ay naku ewan! Nakakawindang. Sabagay hindi mo rin sila masisisi, kahit nga ako dumaan na din sa ganyan (yung mga araw ba na parang bigla mo na lang ginagawa yung isang bagay na wala namang kadahi-dahilan! Remember? Kaloka ever yun. Umiyak na nga lang ako nun ng dahil sa napakababaw na dahilan! Speaking of , tama na ito!---Back to the topic!) eh di yun na nga, dedmahan sila ever! Tapos hindi ko talaga sila ma-gets, yung isa magtatanong sa kin kung galit daw ba yuung isa sa kanya at hindi sya pinapansin, tapos yung isa naman nagtatanong kung anong nangyayari dun sa isa bakit daw hindi rin namamansin yung isa?! Di ba kaloka! Ikaw daw ba ang tanungin ng nangyayari eh ni hindi mo nga ma-explain sa sarili mo kung anong meron! kaloka!

Sana naman matapos na ang kaguluhang ito!!!