ruined friendship

It was all a mismatch after all! I don’t want to tell you what went wrong because it just makes me feel worse! If ever there would be a person who has the right to be angry here, it is me (and my friend of course)! So don’t blame me!!! I’ve trusted you so much! I even trusted to you my friend’s feelings and what did you do? Even though it was so hard for me to trust people, I did trust you! I’m sorry but I though everything was right from the very start, now I know it was all wrong after all! I’ve asked you if you were serious and you said yes! I had your word and I trusted it, not knowing that it would be the worst thing that I could have done! Now look at here, you may say that I’m over reacting and maybe I am. But you can’t blame me! You hurt her so much that it makes me feel guilty. She trusted you that she’s willing to give up her one year relationship just for you, just to know if you both click together. And I hate you for hurting her. You may be a very nice person, with all your good characters and all that, but being nice is not all. You may have your reasons but no matter how hard I tried to think it all over, you were still wrong! She’s been fair to you and you didn’t become fair to her! I don’t to be rude to you. And she also asked me not too. She asked me not to change anything between our friendship. But I already told her that I cannot do what she’s asking me. Gaining my trust is not that easy and getting it back may be impossible.

matchmaker

Since when did I become a matchmaker? It’s funny the way things happened these past few days. I met him in my first year in college and she is my friend way back from my high school days. It never crossed my mind that one day they’ll like each other. That time I made them text mate, he was in a relationship and so was she. But now he’s free and she was having some kind of war with her boyfriend. Somehow I felt that it was my responsible since I was the one who introduce them to each other. If it weren’t because of me then they’ll not be hurting each other in the long run. It’s not that I’m saying that their story will not be a happy ending one (just like most of my own story turns out) but incase anything bad happened, you can’t blame me if I were to feel guilty.

Now things are going well between them and I’m happy for both of them. It was not surprising that they’ll be together. They have been both asking me for advices. I also felt that I cheated him somehow. In what way? I can’t say because he might read this blog and maybe I’ll be the same reason that their relationship will not work out. I’ve been wishing the best for both of them.

Another thing that keeps on bothering me was her boyfriend. They are still together and I felt that I took advantage and pushed him in her. Even though they are having tough times in their relationship. You see, they are not seeing each other and it’s been months (or years?) since they last saw each other. She’s in the province and he’s in the city. She stopped going to school so she had to go home to be with her family. They had their first year anniversary this last May 11, but as I said, things are not that good. Her boyfriend even tried to break up with him many times. That brought me to the idea that she had the right to be happy with the one that she likes. And by the look of it she likes my friend. And I think her relationship with her boyfriend is going nowhere.

Is it a crime that I helped them? I just want to help both of them. I want them to be happy. To be with the one they love. Is it wrong? As I can see they like each other and they admitted it to me. I told them to be true to themselves and that’s it!