accepting

i'm still absorbing the idea... and by the looks and feel of it ,i can't still accept it. just thinking about it makes me sick! it really does! oh how i hate it! i can't even told vocally about the situation to anyone. because he told me not to! it's not that i'm finding it hard to keep a secret, in fact i can say that i'm the best secret-keeper of the century. but do you ever have the idea of you not talking to anyone about the problem that goes in your own mind?!!! i mean, you can't even discussed it with anyone! and it's driving me crazy! I already told him that i have liked him before and he just told me that it's fine! there's absolutely nothing wrong with it. well it's good! at least it wasn't the way i would have thought of. arghhhh. for the first time i had the courage to confess to someone how much i have liked him. i guess it's better to admit it rather than to keep it in me for all my life. and the way it turned out i can say that it was good,somehow!

waah...

nabigla ako sa sinabi nya. hindi ko akalain na masasabi nya yun. at least he trusted me as his friend. he told me na wag ko na lang daw muna sabihin sa iba. at me being his friend mas pinili kong manahimik na lang. hindi talaga ako makapaniwala sa sinabi nya. kahit naman siguro malaman yun ng mga classmates namin nung high school mabibigla din cla. sobrang bigla ko talaga, at sa sobrang bigla hindi ko matanggap ang katotohanan. totoo pala talaga na "the truth really hurts". hahaha. nagdadrama na naman ang lola mo! nakakainis talaga! alam ko madaming di makakaintindi sa kanya pero wala na akong magagawa! that's the way he is and all i can do is to accept him though it's hard for me! but how i still wish that he was not like that. i never ever though of that. and he was supposed to be what i have known him from the very start. look i liked him back then and knowing that he is like that i can't really accept it! they said that i'm over acting but this is me! i know i don't have the right to judge him but how i wish that i was just dreaming the moment he told me about it. i really appreciated the trust anyway! oh God help me to accept the truth!

ano daw?

ano daw sabi ni sir?! SYSTEM as in SYSTEM?!!! hindi ko alam kung mali lang yung pagkakadinig ko o talagang medyo inaantok lang ako ng mga panahong yun,pero tama ba yung narinig ko?! gagawa na daw kami ng system at ito pa "proposal to be pass on thursday"!!! ano ka? hilo? hindi kaya ganun kadali mag-isip ng system ano! at on-line pa! niloloko mo ba talaga ako?! WAKE-UP! nanaginip ba ako?! OA ba? cenxa na kaya lang hindi ko inaasahan na ganito kaaga nya sasabihin na gumawa kami ng system. parang thesis na yun ah, may documentary pa yun syempre pero di pa rin ganun kadali yun. naiiyak na nga ako nun, gusto ko ng tumakbo palayo sa room kaso ayoko nga! nawindang talaga ako sa balitang yan. masaya pa naman sana dahil sya na ulit yung prof namin sa isa sa mga mjor subjects namin kaso dahil sa mga sinabi nya parang mas gusto ko tuloy na iwanan nya na lang kami ulit tulad nung pag-iwan nya sa min dati. pero anyways gusto pa rin naman namin sya. God Bless us na lang sa mangyayari sa System naming ito. Database Management System nga pala yung subject namin sa kanya.

first day high

balik eskwela na naman po ang inyong lingkod. masyadong madrama ang mga pangyayari dun sa nakaraan kong mga naisulat dito. la lang! wala kase akong maisip isulat nang mga panahong yun. at let's change the topic dahil ayoko ng pag-usapan pa un, tapos na at maayos na ulit ang lahat kaya di na dapat balikan pa yun. nakakatuwa dahil naayos na at masaya din ( di ba magkatulad lang ang mga salitang "nakakatuwa" at " masaya"?) whatever! basta tapos na yun. nagkita-kita na naman kami at in fairness hindi ko sila na-miss (joke!)pero ang the "most" shocking na balita ay ito- magiging prof daw namin ang isa sa mga taong sabihin na natin ay hindi namin inaasahan na magiging prof namin. never! even in our dreams,di sumagi sa isip namin yun. pero wala kaming magagawa dahil ganyan talaga. sabi nga nila "expect the unexpected". goodluck na lang sa aming lahat.