get over it

I never thought that it would be this hard. That letting go of him would left me too far from recovering. Three months have passed, and still counting - no improvement, though I tried, it was still useless. He still exist. Everywhere, deep inside me. You can't blame me if I made the wrong decision. It's the only easy way out. And the thing was I got tired - of waiting. I think I was waiting for nothing after all. It was just me and not him. It hurts somehow - no, it hurts a lot. I don't know if I should take it seriously when he said what he said,but that's what he said, but I don't know if he mean it. Everyone was telling me the same thing. No, I don't like to look at it that way. He's just being too friendly. Until now I'm confused with what he really feels - his thoughts are just too hard to read. Two months is not a joke. I get to know him for what he was for that length of time, well maybe it wasn't enough - but for me it is.

how to start

I really want to write something about what happened. To tell it all here so that it wouldn’t be that hard for me inside – but I don’t know how to start it! I don’t think there was even a start for that story after all. All I know is that I’m trying to get over it and I keep on telling myself also to get over it but until now I don’t think I’m over it somehow. Confusing right? But that’s it. I even decided not to update my accounts in the Internet for a month just so I can get over those things. One thing remains - it’s still there. And it feels like everything keeps reminding me of it.

one at a time

I was through a lot for the past few months. I couldn’t tell it all right now, but the thing is I’ll try telling it all here – one at a time.
I was obviously busy. I wasn’t able to get in touch with my blog and my other accounts for about a month and to the people who seems to remember visiting my blog (and those accounts’ profile). I know this blog is so common, an ordinary one I can say. But this is where I can write the things that I’m just finding hard to speak out and I’d like it to be this way - “what’s written in here stays here” (you know what I mean.)
I’ve learned so much for the past two months that I was on the training as a call center agent. I’ve met amazing people that really became my good friends. I’ve heard many different stories that I never thought could really happen in real life. I’ve found people that really inspired me with their life stories. I’ve met people who really made me laugh. There are also those who affected me so much and made me cry (so much for that). Because of them my 2008 was really a happy year.

Questions?

I don't know if what I'm feeling is right or wrong. But all I know is that all the questions in my mind right now can only be answered by a yes or no.

Yes or No. Is it really possible to fall for someone whom you just met?

Yes or No. Is there such as "generic friendliness"?

Yes or No. Do you have any right to get jealous when a guy you like flirts with someone?

Yes or No. Is it really that hard to say you like someone?

Yes or No. Would you be an assuming person if you think that a guy likes you too?

Yes or No. When you can't look straight into someone's eyes, does it mean that you feel something for that someone?

Yes or No. Is it normal to miss someone whom you just met?

Yes or No. Do you really have to wait for the right time to say you like someone?

Yes or No. Will it hurt if the right time comes but then that someone is not there anymore?

Yes or No. And do I have any right to ask these questions?

I don't know what's happening to me. I just hope that this is not true.

And another thing.

Yes or No. Is it okay to believe that what I'm feeling is true even if there's a possibility that it's not?

And another.

Yes or No. Do you believe that "signs" from above exist? and

Yes or No. Are they effective?